happy! i love today! today rawks! ahahahas.

ytd went out with fen to buy teachers day present. hahaha. end up buying chocs lorh. and yupp! broke now. and call seemun wear f33classtee with mi.

met her this morning. went back to class to slack and videocamm. woah. today im a videocam-woman larh. hahaa. and the teachers day items went fine.. but i watch before lerh. so not really interesting...

and F43 item!!! they havent even danced pple cheered so loudly! so happy kies! hahahas. and video-camed.. but i think the whole video will be full of screams then the song.. hahaha. and teachers item! saboed mr chia and ms khoo! continue videocamming because the dancers havent come down.. and yup! i used up the batt! ahahahs.

and gave teachers the presents before heading to PS..

ate pastamania! uhm. quite okay larhs. hahahas. and shopped awhile.. was so pissed. shld hav gone to PS ytd instead.. found loads of things to give teachers.. ohwells.

anyways. wanquanyule start lerh! watched... have a lil nap before revision till night! burning midnight oil!

faithFOURTHREE rawks! we LOVE ms KHOO! x)

wee!

added a new cursor and a mini player! hahahs. only able to dl this song and barney and friends i love you song cause the rest are too large. feels so constricted. with onli 2 boxes in a layout. there is still much more to add. nvm. will make one.. after Os? how long.

wahahahs. emoticons spree! hahas. im still finding a place to upload the song i want larhs. hahas. anyways. was so tired ytd and got forced to sleep. THANKS TO SOMEONE. hahas. but i was reading a storybook halfway and slept. hahas.

all the wayy till the morn. lols. anyways. i still hafta study today. emaths mocks ppr1 tmr. sadded. my monday at home gone. sigh. how i wish i could tresure the time in the past semester to go home right after school and not slack in shopping malls. and prelims are approaching. how fast. *sigh*

oh wells. havent ate lunch. dum dee dum.

okay. please press PLAY to hear the winnie the pooh melody alright. ahhas

just came home! tired. havent eat my deelicious dinner. uhm.

past few days was very hectic. wordpower.. amaths class 'test'.. mocks. got so fustrated. finially finished my amaths june ppr1. got forced too lars. but kinda glad. i culd at least.. DO SOME? hahaa.

pe was greaat! sigh. dunno when will be my next PE lessons? i will must those days i played ball with the class during recess! and we broke a glass ytd. ooops. but nvm larhs. small case. hahas. and victor and JS got i stroke of caningg ytd. really cant stand the school. spank for LAME REASONS. arghs.

was very very weird these days. yes. very. cant get myself to study for todays mockexams today. so kinda slack. slept at 1, and woke up at 4 to study, but didnt practise tys. so i think today was gonee too.

and PnD today. yays! i got my PBB finally! hahahas. but i still cant keep it. and monday still hafta wear full-u. was very very sleepy today. but i manage to hold on larhs. the message was interesting. but was half asleep.

oh wells. prelims is nearing. how time flies. and there is still emaths mock exams on monday. AHH! gimme a break!

im hating it. im hating it. im hating it!

gees. slept at 2.30 last night. bwahh. still wanted to stay awake longer but, im afraid i hav no energy the next day. didnt really studied for wordpower after i blogged. was really tired. not sleepy, tired.

was soaking wet today.not just wet. even my bag. urgh. trying to dry it now.

sighs. havent been 'myself' lately. feeling so so weird. i cant say im stress, since i havent even started on prelims and all. but whats happening to me. what life im going through, at the age of 16.

maybe i shall study today. but, that would be for mocks on saturday. sigh.

all i need is ample rest, and try to avoid the tv and computer.

but im addicted.

this layout is getting mi pissedddd.

just taking a short break from studying wordpower... *yawnss*

finally done with tys and a little of kingsway. but urgh. i hate college level. all the words seems soo soo unknown! wad papacy! (the word which 'cursed' your dad because of mispronounciation. pa-pa-ci?) feeling so peeved. maybe, the college lvl will take mi 2hrs? well, hope i can tahan. kinda.. fully awake now. *yawns* and again.. not really.

urgh. i dunnoe y im so weird lately. uh-oh. 23msgs received. errhh. within 4hrs. cant be bothered to reply.

/thats me. maybe. probably. shld be.

dumdeedumdeedumm. so bored.

just woke up. feel asleep after conferencing. too tired. sigh. havent started on wordpower test. feeling a little stress bouts it. gees.

lessons today was alright. was wide awake. well, maybe the reason is because i slept late? okay. thats ironical. but yeeeeeah. okay. weird wendyy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLEE!(piggyy!)

tired. was online since 3.30. SO LONG! urgh.

crapp. anyways. lit test is bonkerrrrss. i onli write 3points. wth? when i hav 7 pts to talk about? arghhh. but *phew*. open book test.

rest of the days were alright. too busy reading newspaper. till fenny was to pissed off with my obsession over the NEWS. hahas.

dont think im studying today. bwahahahas. still hafta type some stuff. bleahh.

and i have not started studying for prelims.

off i go. to bed.

*coughhhssssss*

i hate it mans! kaos.. aham today got baibai. alot of food to eat. and at this point of time.. WHEN I AM SICK!! urgh. and she just delievered 2 tubes of icecream. and theres still a dozen 1.5litres of green tea! damn.

today is another boring day! not really. cousins came. i played PS with them. wahahahas. play bomberman!! so lame. but funnayyy. keep getting hit by the bomb. then the bomberman go ouchouchouch. hahahs. wad crapp.

and yeah. nvr study. fenny didnt too. so the bet on the phone ytd was FAIR! wahahahas.

anyways. gtg. sister wanna use lerr. HER DAY today. bleahhh.

wahahahas. the picture is GONE!

will be back de larhs. today is another hopeless day. to busy watching Athens2004. li jiawei lost. boohoos.

i havent study for lit test. 6stories. wad a long night tonight.

anyways. off to bath really hot.

hardly a saturday at home! but kinda made mi feel abit slack too. but i wanna study! errrh.

didnt bothered to go for drill test. had quite alot of ppl to pei me ayways. sorry mdms who took so much effort organising it. but i really cant be bothered to spend 2 1/2 hrs of drilling under the sun and wearing full-u. im sick anyways. ill gladly write them a letter if they want to.

urgh. this image loads so slowly. im abit impatient. thanks to me, saving such a big image. shld hav broken them up. and i cant find a image uploader which can make the image appear faster. ohwells.

wanna buy two cds. but ive got no time to go out. darnn.

another boring day in class arhhs. not realllly..

cme did some grpwork. kinda boring.. but better than lessons! lit as usual.. did aces excercise for one period of PE.. lame sia. got bball style.. karate and dunno wad shit. but lucky do once only.. then played confused captains ball! x) veh long nvr play liaoo. but this time was really confusing.. 6chairs and 4teams. yeapps.

played captains ball during recess. as usual.

same old lessons.. and 2 free periods! gees. theseira nvr come! shiook. they practiced dance larh. was busy flipping thru maggs. and after school played netball with the class for awhile.. but the heaven cried. and went it stopped.. no ball! hahaha. so headed home..

oh yeah. i didnt sleep in class today! miracle!

oh yeahs. forgot to bring my tamagotchi to school today. not really forgot but.. dun wan. cause got PE.. wanna make frens with anyis. ahahs. after 1 hrs of effort of resetting.. its finally a boy. ahhahs.

anyways. today is rather a slacking day for mi. cant be bothered to do maths anymore. ytd night do until pekchek. but i havent started revision. worried but cant get myself to do it. oh wells. maybe this weekend. finally i can hav a peaceful weekend with no one bothering mi and no activities on! yeapps.

gonna be sick too. abit feverish today le.. but exercise helps my immune system.. err. think so.

anyways. off to watch tv.

hahahas. great great day!

err. feeny's day today! must qian jiu her today.. but ill be very very mean to her tmr! hahahs.

ytd is 1st of july in the chinese calendar! and my sis really behave like a ghost sia.. HUNGRY GHOST.. wanna kope my curry puff. but, i good mood so gave her half lar.. if not is i eat both de lehh! hahas.. kong rong rang li ma.. lol.

and today. orals! not so scared larhhs.. lol. rather.. was playing thru-out. did some stupid questions frm the emaths TYS just to boost my confidence.. hahas. got pathetic 26/60 for mockss! and i got 0 for the easiest simulteous qn! lol. but heck la. nvr study. hehes.

and orals was alright! alicia told mi a something which gets be calm and yeaps! not as nervous as chinese lorhh!! ahhas. i crapped thru-out but todays conversation topic was rather alright la.. ahahs. not as scared as chink orals! and yeaps. went to stroll ard and waited for serene to finish hers and went for remedial. and dismiss lerrh. go netball court for awhile and HOMMEEEEEEE.

and talked to daddy. FINALLY. told him y i dun wanna retake. and woah. finally he let go of the idea of mi retaking my chinese. and all my sis say was bullshit larhs. she dunno that syllabus can change!

oh wow. 2more weeks till prelims! *sigh* i din realize manns. so lagg. hahahs. alrightts. hafta study liao. yeapps!

i still cant get over rod. i wll miss them so so much. esp. when i read their lil notes. touch-ed. sighh. maybe its true that nothing in life is permanent..

new week! bad start! keep bumping into some stupid pple. pfffftt. usual me. no sense of urgence specially now, and this point of time. im still slacking and sleeping in class. *yawns* and just had my 3hrs of nap. boohoos.

grrrss. so stressed. tmr is MY english orals! ohmygosh.. how time flies.. i dun wan the same thing to happen as the chinese orals! stumbled.. brain blocked.. URGH. i dun wan get a pass only! i wan merit!!! okies. prayyy. but really hope my articulations are right tmr arhs.. and my right brain can think faster. -.-''

oh wells. todays lit test. wendy lee is still sleeping on the table!!! onli finish part (a). and pple write 1 and 1/4 of a page.. wendy wrote 3/4. hahas. wads happening to my brain la. but luckily not counted. and no one finish part (b) too. pheww.

thanks sqd10 and some other juniors for the gifts!! :)

happie. sad. touch-ed.

long entry. all about my day.

ytd night slept for 3 hrs only. finish my rod presents at 2 and studied a lil. then woke up at 5.30 to study. didnt finish and.. dun think i could get anything into my brains. and surely, nuthing went in!

didnt hav the 'mind' to do mocks today. came to school late because of my irritating eyes due to contacts and slept for my ss ppr. hoho. first time i slept for ss ppr. didnt do the 13m structured essay at all. didnt study populaton. thanks to mr lee. wanted to write a lil note saying 'dont know how to do. i didnt study population.' but i scared mrs lee is the one who mark our ppr. left out a 13m qn for geog too. nvr study. mapwork oso anyhow do. aiyah. i hate agriculture and enviornment la. but nvr sleep for this ppr la. hehes.

rod. thanks all for the nice performance, slideshows and video! was really touch-ed. hold back my tears.. i promised someone not to cry le.. i love the broom dance! omg.. really creative. ohmy.. the sec2s are really bold mans.. unlike mi in the past. hurhurs. and yeap! sec 4s lame and unprepared dance went well! lol. really well! claire got so bold suddenly.. do banana song! ALONE! and oh wow.. their reaction very fast lorh.. lol. and really thanks for the mdms for the cd they gave.. dunno whic mdm know i like purple! omg.. so touch-ed.. again..

dinner time. giving out pressies! heehees. running around.. and when i finally settled down.. my sqd was in tears.. sighh. and i cried. i hate this feeling. ut thats life i guess. popped champagnes. 2 with my sqd w the new leaders, 1 after the meeting ard 8 with the sec4s. had a really fun time. really touch-ed. because some ppl whom i didnt thought of came up to me and gave me a lil pressie. maybe gonna write them a lil note back.

just reached home. tired. hand pain. with the dinosaur egg on my hand. maybe opening to pressies tmr. im deprived of sleep. panda eyes now. not onli now. long agoo. wanted to speak to loads of ppl. hope they are alright. maybe, a lil note will do. really glad. my sqd is able to accept the sqd and asst leader. happie. sqd 10 will go on foreverrr!

finally out of GB. shld really settle down and work hard for my Os. i will not let anyone down. not myself either. i dun wan to face with the situation ive faced 2 days ago. thanks God for teaching me this lesson.

GB SQD 10 ROCKS FOREVER~!

busy. came online for sum reasons. waiting for something. and off i go.

not started for mocks.

kinda just came home. went out for rod presents. finally. got the things i wanted to buy. really glad. hope i can juggle my time well today. mocks and rod presents. making some.

class was alright. pe was fun. no more blueblack. wad a party we had. 3 packets of twisties and yupi gummies. was suppose to go out with nette. got PS-ED! hahas. went out with angel. talked alot. not crapped.

just hope ive made the right decision. angel is making mi scared, anxious too. tp's pnd and iad so busy? nooooo..

2 more to go. QUICK....

troubled. confused. thats wendy today.

seek loads of ppls advices. but i just cant make up my mind.

im glad, and somehow angry. i could get a b3. i knew i could. but my orals.. pulled mi. all i wanted was a b3.. ive reached my goals.. but just because of my stammerings and nervousness.. my target wasnt reached..

i hav the urge to put a 'yes' on the ppr which has a qn 'retake?'. but i wanna concentrate on my other subs too. im afraid. if i ever get a b4 and below, all my efforts are wasted. the feelings of a broken hrt is just so so awful.. but i wanna retk.. as i wan to reach my goals.. but im still blurr. confused. there is only one person that got a pass for orals and get b3..

is it impossible?

all things are possible. but shld i follow my heart.. and retake, or emphasize on my other subjects? so so confused.

dad is kinda angry. alright. he shldnt be angry. i cant improve and jump from a c6 to an a2 straightaway alright. my language aint as good as sis. stop comparing us will u? i must admit my maths is better than hers. but not chinese. ive been flunking chinese since primary school. if you didnt notice. in fact, he shld be happie. ive got a B for the first time in my upper secondary life. from Ds, to Cs and now the final lap, a B4. im happy for myself.

stop comparing. PLEASE. u claimed that sis chinese was from Cs and Ds. pls look at the report book. sis has nvr gotten a C for chinese in secondary school! and its natural that she got an A1!

sigh. y cant we retake oral!?!?

i will certainly retake if i got a merit for orals alright. but things done cannot be undone.

i cried. not tears of joy. neither sorrow. but confusion. wheres God at my hardest point in my life?

maybe i shld seek my seniors and friends advices. just like wad sweedy said. pray. ask God. and all who stood by me. but the decision is still mine.

wendy. in a dilemma. i am totally moodless to study now.

alright. back on track. first time in my life i hav to make such a decision. urgh. how am i gonna face my future if i cant even make such a simple decision for myself? oh wells. today. seek loads of ppls advices. inbox flooded. talked to ms wong, ms khoo and pan lao shi. still, it all depends on mi. but i improved! yups. didnt paid attention in class today.

was already thinking ytd. b3 and above- NO RETAKE. c5 and below-MUST RETAKE. and im faced with.. ARGH. help. oh wells. listen to my ahmas advices la. tokking to her later. hope i can make my final decision.

ive thought it all. it is definately easier for mi to score a grade higher for chinese than subs like humanities. all thanks to my orals. im stuck.

//pissed.

so fast.. 5 days holiday over. and i didnt touch on anything. wasted. regrets. damn.

rod present havent buy. *complains* i noe wad to make/get liao. woohoos.

b o r e d.

pathetic contact list. ohwells. at least i will talk to the 19. wads the big deal of having a 100plus contacts if you dun even chat?

ok.im trying to cheer myself up. but maybe, thats true?

19 is a nice number anyways. maybe this account shld hav a 19 in it. all becos 19 is my index number.

im really growing OLD. i cant rmb even a single email add. except 1?

just add mi wont you.

sorry for the crap.

i dont hav the national day mood. im still feeling bored. and tired. and still slacking around. not studying. URGH.

ytd night, loads of ppl were crowding at the corridor.to watch fireworks. so lame. as if they nvr watched b4. maybe today there might be much more crowding there. oh sheesh.

today will be a boring day. i refuse to study. i wanna go ps. but cannot. urgh. it looks as though im gonna be grounded AGAIN. but i havent got rod presents! danggg.

maybe i will trying touching my amaths textbk later. or maybe. physics will do.

what a holiday!

this is WEIRD.

i found some cash on mt tabletop. for once. i thought i was broke. but now not anymore. maybe gonna be. rod presents.

im still stoning.

thanksgiving is alright. ERR. i hope.

it shld be called sleepingtime instead. everyone was sleeping soundly. the chair is just oo comfortable. but NOT MINE! the person behind kept kicking. kind of pissed. wanna turn arond and tell him. but he was too busy sleeping.

dance was nice! choir was alright. principal msg was attentive. pastors speech was sleeping. prize presentation was cheering.

went out with yingru. fen. shu. juliana. serene. joyce. sarina. gene.w and 'eric chan award winner' after thanksgiving. we dunno how to walk to kallang mrt. walked to aljunied. but gave up. cab-ed.

went to buy teachers days clothes. the guys onli bought a tie.

yearning to watch moviee. joyce wanted to watch today. i din bring enuff cash. :(

hating this years NDP celebration. so short.

parade was alright. i can tahan! w/o breakfast! wells. not surprising. no sun. creative drill was NICE! im not lying kies. pple dunno you ppl hav done a mistake rightt..

singspiration was alright. wanna join fourthree in the singing. but before i could.. urhh. its over. wad the heck. but gb was alright too. no fun. all becos u teachers hafta rush tp kallang threatre.. u spoilt our day!! oh wells.

went out just now. watched a superduper lame movie. the actress dead trice. summer she was dead, woke up at winter. and got stabbed. dead. and woke up again. the whole threatre kept shouting 'wah lau...' but its nice larh. except for the lame part. was watching house of flying daggers anws.

ella enchanted sold out. the notebook fen dun wanna watch. the village.. hahas. i dun dare. but maybe catching the notebook this few days. shall see. keep hearing the advert in radiooo.

havent been revising/homwork-ing/studying. maybe today night. if im not tired. maybe tmr. or maybe.. going out tmr. shall sseeeeeeeee.

oh yarh. 5 more grps hafta be kicked out fr teachers day after fulldress. bad news. sadded.

totally a weirdo last night/tis morning.

slept at 9pm ytd. was soso tired tired after drill. and i woke up at 1.10am sharp for idunnowahtreason. din wanna study for amaths retest tho. begun flipping thru ss textbook. sian. wanna revise physics. textbk in class. read lit text. sleepy. so ate cup noodles and slept again. really weird.

but something hilarious happened. during rcc's remedial. clare msged mi 'rcc din zip his pants' err. cant see. either hes wearing black boxers/underwear or it aint true.

today was rather alright. kept telling myself today is a grt day. and i paid attention! in physics! so so unlike me. was making a loads of noise in remedial till mrs ho hafta reprimand us again and again. and after school played netball for awhile.

tmr is NDP. kinda sianns. thinking of me, standing for 50mins. with the lil longkang accompanying me. but maybe tomorrow will be a great day. urhh. hope so. but i wanna be with fourthree.

i hate this feeling. coming again and again. y cant it just fade awie. at this point of time.. ughh. y mist ppl hav feelings.. oh wellls...

SCREAMS! fourthree got in for teachers day! fOURTHREE GOT IN FOR TEACHERS DAY! hoorays! fourfour too. cheerios all! its all over! things are back to normal ONCE AGAIN! :))) triple smiles!

first thing in the morn. got a slip frm zulfadlhi and yeaps. overjoyedd. subsequently. the day gets boring.

was so awake today. i listened during ss! unlike the usual me which got domineered by my right brain! my left brain is working well and fine today! and im loving venice. it totally rawks.

rest of the day is fine. except english. was so boring although she is going thru some really important stuff. and i got suaned indirectly. ss remedial was great too. was busy chatting with cheryl bouts some class stuffs tho. wasnt really paying attention. wad a short attention span i hav.

played badminton. or rather. WATCHED huiqin, fenny, cheryl and mr lian play. and was surrounded with evil laughters. erm. esp. how huiqin luff while her class ppl push the van. i shld admit its hilarious, but no need for that luffter yea?

still, theres chemistry test tmr. and not forgetting, NDP drill. gonna enjoy tmr. i dunno y. i determined to get at least a pass? alright, im not good at chem.

hoping for a better day. it will be one.

tuning in to..
Counting Crows-Accidently in love.

[im missing you deeply, suddenly.]

nar nar nar.

im not so goon doo after all. i can use it NOW. and i think im meddling with it too much. hahas. but now no one to use with me. huiqin come home quick. i wan see your face. stop siaming frm the cam. boo hoo.

got back amaths test. unexpected results. low low low. lost 11 marks. for good. kinda pissed. im gonna get a perfect score for the retest. i cant struggle thru this basics. onli part where i can lose marks is proving identities.

anxiouss. teachers day audition. everyone praying hard. pray for us to.


get out of my life bastards.

PLEASE.

maybe i shldnt be so harsh. urhm. and if you ever read this. good for you. cos im sick of it. i am sick of it. get real. study and dun let anyone down.

.All out of love.

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too, but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

Chorus:I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without youI can't be too late to say that
I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

Chorus

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

Chorus(3 times)

[ nicee song! heard from class95. woooo. ]

another day.

went popular. bought stationaries and supposedly.. a book.

and slacked. uncle asked mi ' your sis live in ostel how much? if you get into the jc near my house(mjc). your 'hostel' fee will be half of hers'. and i told him 'sis not living in hostel. so if i can get into mjc, my 'hostel' fee is free + all the black pepper chilli crabs you will bring mi to eat every weekend!' and he surrended. if i ever get into mjc, my 'hostel fee is free. if im gonna stayover at his hse.

and slacked. dling songs. just dled ella enchanted. and shrek2 is on its way. and next will be 13 going on 30. im breaking loads of laws.

hahas.