okie.. im getting more of a sleepyhead. slept frm 4 to 715 and wanted to polish boots.and yanzhen msged mi around 12. she can get in to ccps with benson and yet i cant! oh wells.. pengss... the sercurity is bias!!! -sighz..- wanna polish boots just noe but.. mua kiwi all harden. lazee to go down n buy. *pengss* y am i so unlucky? whenever im in e mood of polishng.. just cant find mua kiwi. but when i cant be bothered to polish. the kiwi is rite in front of mi.. oh wells.. im eyes are hurting. and im having a blurred vision. i guess becos i slept with mua contacts and stared at the comp to loonngg.. lemme go get it out first.. manz.. im blind.

finally decided to blog after browsing thru sum webbies.. too lazee hurs.. =X yeah.. made another attempt to sneak into school.. but failed.. bleahss.. hate e sercurity guard! manss.. okokie.. todaes celebration was.. sucky. esp the rock band and ACES. yucksss.. and tis yrs aces suckss.. cant even follow with e steps.hurhurs.. todae is chers' dae celebration and had half dae. didnt bought any pressies doh. cant be bothered. didnt even went out to shop tis week. *self controll...* and yeah. nat todae either. planning to but.. most of em wanna go back to primary school.. so i guess.. go home n rot.. hurhurs~ sems ass if mua house is a pot of plants. rotting soon. need water... hurhurs.. now waitin for mua mum to call. see whether she can take mua out. =) becos im reallie bored now.. e manjusri sec is still havin dere celebration. had lion dance...sumone singin 72 bian and loadds more. had sum kinda external entertainment. but e peeps dere are real enthu. can hear their cheers and claps at home. bleahss.. how i wish im out. tmr hav gb. umm.. planning to go.[duhz] and needa polish boots. oops! haven bought mufti. nbm.1 more dae.. *pengss* i asked xuanqi hows sq10.. she sighed..linyun bah..loadss of peeps hated her.. oh wells.. i guess i try to change her attitude. umm.. can i? hope so. and tmr hfta bring mua cousin to watch movie. i mean sundae.. but go her house to stay. near tm marh.. so i guess.. oh wells.. hopes tht wad she wanna watch is not homerun.not again.. woots! the manjusri peeps are singing 'teachers pet'. bring back old memories. i sang tht song in ccps n we dreaded to do so. and we sang it as teachers pest.. hurhurs~once and again..
happie cherchers dae!

\\song:teachers pet//
Original Lyrics:
teachers pet, i wanna be teachers pet. i wanna bring home a diploma and show mum tht i can do it.. umm hmm..

Editied Lyrics:
teachers pest, i wanna be teachers pest. i dun wanna bring home a diploma and sow mum tht i cant d it..uhh huh

todae i told mua dad tht i will not touch any textbooks and storybookies. and he didnt utter a word. yeapz~ hehes. fail mua english cos mua outta point. okokies~ not too shocked.. but kinda agitated. cos mua just finish with e emaths test and veh tensedd.. oh wells. i knew how to do mua emaths test. and got 10 marks correctly. (i guess.) but kinda veh sick after tht. wells... hope mua do wells eh? i tot i would get backies mua physics test todae but.. nopes! dunnoe y.. hav confidence in mua physics bahhh.. yeah.. and the sqs members are out! yeah~ my sq not bad larhx.. haf soktieng.xiuping(errs?).xuanqi.cheryl.denise.linyun.daphne. and 2 more forgot lers.. umm.. kinda knew most of em. =) okokies.. get backies to mua school work.. haf chinese.. hafta buy a book so thinny and cost 4bucks! oh wells! okokies.. then social studies.. mr lee aint ere. had chicken pox. hehes. but the relief cher is far worst! so yucky.. made mua puke. yucks~ and wasnt really in e mood of studying ss. so slack.. =) and after recess. cme.. fun! yeahyeah! took class photo. and the dae went by.. after school got chased outta school. hehes. the teacher hafta attend sumptin n went to the bakery. e bread is soo delicious! ahh~ wanna eat more!

all tht i hav..
all tht i am..
i lay em down b4 u.. ohh lord.
all my regrets.. all mua acclaims..
the joy n e pain.
im making em urs..

eeps!~ i think im realli changing.. bleahs.. cant help..=X studied for the whooolle afternoon todae.. studied mua physcis.. oops~ kinda lonely todae.. sarah aint 'ere. sick i guess. *hopes ya well* and was invited e chinese remedial. *manzz* stil thinkin' of excuses.. wanna study mua emaths test... cant even do a a single sum for mua test! keez~ i guess. todaes test was terrrible. i wrote and wrote all e crappy stuff i manage to drill in mua brian e dae b4. but. i still forgot sum. cant stand muaself! really helpless. i guess ive not spent enuff time.. but at least i spend more then i usually do for mua other test! lemme recall. 4hr for notes and 2-3hrs for studying.. hmm.. not a bad start for mua determintation. =) wanna at least pass muz geogy test and get 19/25 for physics.. =) i can do it! yeah! but really hates tests and exams! study loaaadds and came outta onli like 7-8marks from wadever i hafta learn? bleahs! i wrote 6 pages full of notes (excluding stuff frm mua notebook!) oh well! its lyfe..and todae was a reall great dae! i enjoyed lit and tyme passes real fast with mua eyes on e book and not wondering! i lurrve the lumber room.. (unlike secret sharer) eeps! and dozed off during chapel and nearly during maths.. and ended off mua school dae with mic. so happie bout being a asst leader. piaks~ her mum specially booked a icket for her to traval alone to HK becos she cant go with em earlier 'cos of e retreat. mua parents wont do tht. they will just abandon mua in mua aunts house or sumpthing. but im dreaming or getting crappy i guess. mua dun even haf a passport n mua dad will nvr bring mua outta singapore even to johor! okok.. back into mua realistic world..
*off to study physics. vroom!*

there is none like u..
no one esle can touch mua heart like a do..
i could search for all eternity long
and find there is none like u..

hurhurhurs~ it has been such a loonng time since i ever sat here and blog.. yeah.. manage to tk a few seconds off frm mua hardwork *grins* to sit here and type. nuthing much went on todae. yeah. as usual. was soo tired during chemistry.and nearly dozed off during break. but at least i was refreshed after sum videos. =) and had emaths topical test todae! i flung totally. couldnt even answer a single question. okokie.. to state the fact. i dun even noe which topic hes testing on.. hmm.. sine cosine or similarity? arghz. i flug for sure!but realy glad!i controlled muaself. said no when chiayin asked mua out loadds of times. hafta stardie for geog! yeah and i really did! i sat down and wrote notes frm 315 to 535pm! woah~ im so proud of muaself. but i dun feel like studying now. oh well.. i still haf loadds to study! *manzz..* mua really losing grip of myself. at least im back frm mua fantasy land. heez~xD

brief description of last week.-
tuesday
hmm... cant remember a single thing.. gosh.. really getting old. wait.. lemme think harder...gosh Gosh GOSH! i really forgot! manz. i shuld hav blogged. oh wells..

wednesdae
todae is pft! but nahz.. got an MC for nat doing.. cos mua asthma attack worsen. i guess.. cant really run this year.. manz.. im really getting old. okokie.. and i hafta guard the gate. not letting any cars drive in.. and thats a lame task to do.. yeah.. so i heck.. slack all the way.. see peeps ran.. and cheered. todae is the gurls 2.4km run. =)
and stayed back todae.. for fun.. bleahs.. and slack all the way. didnt bother to go home.. sianz.. eeps!

thursdae
hmm.. gurls are off to their 5 stations now.. and boys run todae.. as usual.. sat at the gate and slack. didnt bother to be a traffic police anyway.. jeered todae.. =x eeps.. but boys running.. dun bother.. keez~ and i brought loads of sweets there. and munch all the way till pft ends.. and woot! i survive 2daes w/o pft! lol.. but back to studying tyme.. *groans..*

fridae
todae was a scary dae.. i mean.. every fridae is scary! becos of maths topical test! eeps! and.. woot! no test! yeah!=XxXx. okok.. relac~ oh manz.. going madd.. and michelle lost her wallet on e bus.. eeps.. but her brother saw it..*phew* hehe! god will make a way.. okok.. crappy crappy mi..

saturdae
to start off.. todae is a fabulous dae! woke up at 4 pluz.. and was so shocked to see mua parents door *close* omg.. i means.. its not 5.. and slack for awhile.. ate a cake and went back to sleep. but. eeps! mua stomach is growling.. =Xx and woke up by mua hp.. mich. ngs msg.. 'i woke up le!' okok.. its lame.. but i guess.. made mua woke up too! heez~ and cant find mua lanyard. so borrow frm anyi. yeapz. and met regina at mac at 935 but as usual.. i was late! omg.. it really reflects mua character. *blushes* and ate breakfast and studied. nat realli. it was a pretence and amanda,claire and mic kwok came. and then joy quek and time to change.. oops! lanyard! okok.. relac.. amanda took it awie.. so *pheeww!!!* n went for p&d. saw loadddss of mua ndp frenz! *grins* and the service went well. =) and reach home.. and slept.

sundae
studied mua geog in the morning.. and went mua cousin came.. went to popular.. spent a long tyme there! hafta wait for the staff to search for e book mua dad wans so went to mac and slack. and when i reach home.. mua haft bring mua other cousins down.. *dreads* they plaed catching and sum lam games while i look after mua baby cousin. and at nite. rest till 930 and start work. pheww.. tired but hafta learn mua chem test and chinese spelling.. OH WELLS!

yest. went for church visit. i cried. during singspiration. really wanna thank amelia. ur one small act really touched mi. thanks.=) and it was fun. didnt really hear was the pastor was tokking. but surely, part of my worrie and sadness was gone.=) thnx all for praying for mi. went out with regina and frenz to eat pizza. (e cheesy pit-za!) lol. so nice! *yummies*. went to tk neocard. and mua and sarah's face came out really black! like peeps frm Africa. hurhurhurs~ and went home. played with mua little cousin. so kawaii! lol. my god-brother was like. playng hide-and-seek with her. n ill hafta guide her along. and everytime she found him. she gave mi a hug! soo sweet! and mua cousin took mua hp home! by mistake. my life is so meaningless w/o one.. *errs* lol. but luckily. i gettng back todae. *hope sooo.* yeah! i guess. gtg eh? hafta do hmwk. mua neea see the doctor to get a letter for exemption frm PFT. buh-bye~

its all over. i hate tht feeling. u hurt mi.. -sigh- when im in times of despair. sadness. not a single soul of u was around. u didnt turn ard to wave goodbye. but now its time. 'sadness feels mua broken heart'

*agitated* soo tired this daze.. ju didnt botha to type.. bleahs.. tis week was so hefty. but i guess. cant forget mua saturdaes. gb lyfe goes on tho.. i had tea session in the morn. it was so obvious to whom was the sq leada. i dint expect mi to be one ever b4. altho i really desire to be a commander. oh well.. i guess i haf the chance no matter wads.. yeah.. loads of tears streamed down frm mua eyes on sat. as well as sun. cant really bear to part sq4. -sigh- mabbe part of my saddness was becos being an asst. but not a tear was for tht. i promised muaself. nvr to cry becos of my position. i guess.. god really wans mi to pay more attention to mua studies eh? i shall really really be glad. god made everything tis way becos of a reason. for sure.i really miz the times in sq4. how i wish. now i really get the feelin' of how eunice felt a yr back. crying does no help. but it makes u feel better. i really wanna thank god. for the good times i spent in sq4 eh? really miz sq4 when i was young now. esp. sec2, when yanzhen was a sq leader. i admit she was the best leader i knew (i cant compare to her tho). everyone under her b4 will agree with mi. but i guess. hafta really accept the fact. im in sq 10. i get over it now. altho tears may seem to come anytime. but i guess. god will make a way fer mi. i will treasure my position as an asst eh? i will do sq10 proud! =)

yeapz! todae is such a happie dae! yuppies.. lol. i passed all muas test! hav good results. (to mua). teehees~ hav 20/25 for emaths and 17/25 for amaths... really didnt expect i will pass though.. oh well.. i tottodae was a real bad dae at first.. cos i cant find mua blouse.. until bouts 7.. i was like.. *OMG* and phew.. i rushed to school in time.. yuppies.. got mua test results back.. althou i onli got 14.5/25 for muas lit.. but i dunnoe wad mua father was thinking and he said its not bad! *errs!* yeapz.. and kinda suppose to come online at 7.. but mua father juz simply refused to type the internets password.. he kept calling mua to pack the house (yeah.. changed windows todae and it was real dirty) and i sweept the floor. helped him moved the bed. mop the living room and tahh-dahhh! here am i.. all sweaty and tired.. i guess.. better hav a good warm bathe b4 i get into mua dreams.. but its so troublesome.. hafta traval all the way up to muas grandmere house to bathe... bleah.. i gues.. gtg.. tata

i wish u were here to guide mi thru mua way of life. but recollecting the past. i guess. i better not. i cant possibly heal another broken heart. lead mi on. god-

oh yeah! yesterdae was a great great great dae!!! lol! yeap.. haha.. havent been blogging for soooo long.. hehez~ havent been blogging for soo long.. to ya? yuppies.. start with fridae eh?

watched Homerun on fridae! soo nice! i cried.. =X.. really wanna watch it again! juz a few tears coming outta muas eyes.. but is so touching! cos i never cried in any movies before.. yeahz.. went out with cherlyn. yuanling. xingying. michelle. ahma. and claire.but onli ahma mi and michelle watched homerun! and all of us cried.. =( hees- derrs~ went home quite early. abt 4..and slept till 8.. =s hahaz.. packed mua stuffs so no tyme to come online and update.. bleahs.. and the daez went on.. and its saturdae! ahh! anxiety! i didnt faint todae.. =) tok alot.. cos the last dae yeah.. and while we are getting ready to go in da stadium all of us screamed.. too nervous... and an hour later.. YEAH! we made it!!!! ahh~ teehees~ stayed to watch the fireworks.. and sook ching cried. we all hug each other and is time to sae goodbye.. ='( ok.. tyme to squeeze thru mrt and it was soo crowded! and went home.. ate mua dinner and watch sum tv and there i go.. *snores* and here i am eh? lol.. off to watch tv! tata.. oopsie.. juz advertisement!

grrs.. lotsa hmwk tis week.. nat really but... theres like 30 qns in the lit worksheet! driving mi crazy. oh wells.. didnt update bloggies yesterdae cos i hafta study for mua maths test.. i practically forgot everything he taught... esp quadratic functions. haizx. dunnoe whether i can do well.. *shruggs* and yeah.. i passed mua physics test.. with flying colours. got 13/25 *phew* yeah.. at least i passed. and neednot stay back after school. finally made mua Ic.. but i look so stupid. oh wellz.. hu will ever look nice in a photo where ya hafta stare in front and hafta smile like taking for a criminal record? ooo wellz.. mua lifetyme picture is so darn awful. *pukes* and yeah! changed mua layout! nice.. too pinkish though.. too bad.. dun haf purple.. blue or pink. so pink then.. cheese.. oh well.. i guess ya peeps outta dere shuld tk a rest. so.. end off ere.. buh-bye!

zzz.. gonna be fast asleep.. hurhurhurs.. yeah.. *dreads* the renovatn has started.. and mua house is in a real devastating state.. covered with wet cement all ova... so yucky.. and yeah.. cant cum online in the afternoons anymore. will be in my grandmas house. studying.. gd chance for mi to study. but todae i kept munching on the potato sticks i bought. heehees.. tht house is done! and so coincedence. cos mua has started todae. and hers ended todae! yay! at least i got a nice and warm bath todae.. x). did mua geogy homework.. so hard but crappymi_ pass thru the stage. =) and yeah! tmr is half-dae! nat realli planning anything.. cos of mua amaths test tmr. so we decided to watch movie on fridae! bleahx.. so i guess.. hafta do mua amaths hw fer tmr.(althou i didnt do any he said b4) so i guess.. lemme carry on with mua chatting and game.. tataz..

i dun wanna run away but i cant take it i dun understand. i hate life now. -sigh-

err hmm.. juz finished muas english thingy. didnt plan to do it.. but.. well i guess. i turn 'guai' le.. hurhurhurs.. yeah.. juz now.. saw mua sisters email.. got tht baby pictures.. so cute! so i went to the web and find.. not english( Bebek İstiyoruz) how am i suppose to find? so i gaf uppie.. and looked for sumone to help mua print the english.. and found a kind soul *errs* jeanette! hehes.. thanks gurl! hehes.. and planning to go out in fri and wednesdae.. hurhurhurs.. michelle wanna watch 4 movies.. *errs..!* yeah.. but we are thinkin.. cos' thurs is maths test and everyone really needa study eh? unless u are JJ.. hurhurs.. but fri.. needa see first.. needa get nervous for sat.. umm? yeah.. i think i better go of now.. my dad is ~~~.. ya noe.. so.. tata everyone outta dere! nitenite!

goodnite! sleep tight! dun let the big buggies bite! *hurhurs- my aunt kinda 'created' this rhyme.*

yeah! i need a reeeaaaalll good hot bath! the weather is so hot. and i am soo tired. cos i slept at 12 yest. nite and i cant take afternoon napz. actually. i could. but my dad will be naggin at mi if i sleep for 2 hrs. all he could allow mi to hav a rest is for juz merely 45mins? which is so impossible. even and alien cant do that. except if i set the alarm clock. but i dun think i will wake up by the sounding of it. and yeap.. had a teeny weeny time of slp during eng lesson. she was tokking rubbish/as usual/ and lit lesson were so.. --- i cant describe. mrs kaan got angry (which she seldom did) becos we were real restless. and chem. i scored badly cant believe it. i stay up to 1am and studied but still i got average. but thank god. i passed. and i promise my dad to pass every test taken last week but i failed one-geography. so unexpected too. oh well.. at least my teacher is ms khoo. everyone noes how she marks the paper.yeahz.?came back so early todae. i thoguht i would come back around 4-5?!?! but the meetg was short. i didnt really help much though (in fact. never did). i was pissed when they told mi i was in recre and i hate this commitee. yucks. not the ppl. but the commitee. *pui pui pui* i hate leading in things. esp. games! im so glad when i am not in recre comm. anymore but.. OH WELL! and yeah.. was dismissed at 3 and strolled home and now.. relaxed.. hope tht i hav no hw. and rememer to bring muas 27bucks and the essay! cant forget! okok.. my eyes are pain and dry. needa take muas contacts out now.. tata

hmm.. i cant possibly come online and write in mua bloggies yest eh.. althou i reach home early.. and yeah. dunnoe wads happening to mua nowadays. can onli sleep at 12midnite.. umms.. read princess diaries vol. 3 and finished it! lol. wad a nice book. happy ending.. not like others.( like thos singapores own tv serials.yucks ) andz.. yeah.. kinda abit dulanz yest. as fiery as the weather..hurhurhurs. n watched the whole show. yeah. great! longing fer it! but i kinda miz normal gb nowadays.. heehees~ wanna really go back.. i wish i could turn back the tyme.. ahh..errs..umm.. hahaz.. kinda "becker" with yanzhen via sms yest. and 12 midnite. hurhurs.
goes like tht:-
she-sent mi a same goodnite msg. which includes her being cute
mi- same one lehz. (kinda bad eh?!?! hurhurs-)
she-of coz the same lahz.. im still as cute rite?
mi- haiz.. so sad.. hav such a BHB senior..
she-wad sad?u sld be honoured k.. u haf such a cute n ever-caring (pukes)senior to see u thru the wonderful yrs of GM..isnt it nice to haf such person lyk mi to guide u?
mi-*pukes* ya.. as if ur that great..
she- not true mehx?hahaz.. then tell mi how great am i...
mi- to the extent that ya teach mi how to be rebellious like eunice and urself. and how bias is 2nd coy mdms. =P
she- ..dOtDoTdOtz..where got?..no such ting lahz.. u r tokking bout the seniors b4 mi time rite..hmmm.. K lahz.. lets end all the craps lahz..it`ll not end wan..
mi- ya lo.. n should thank ya for teaching mi such "good" drill that i hafta stand for 1 whole hr next sat.. hehe... kkiez.. end off ere... veh tired le.. nitenite..

and end off.. hahaz.. so fun.. but glad haf such a good senior *umm..* =X yeahz.. and juz eat lunch.. and mt stomach is aching again.. dunnioe wads rong.. sigh. but later will be enjoying and forgot e pain. muz little 1 yr old cousin is cuming.. yeah! *thinks* i haf fun every sundae! even if i hav lotsa tests the next week.. or even tmr. i wont even spend a single second doin mua hw!i lurve sundaes! yesh i do!

im so damn bloody *beep* tired! argh. slept for um.. ee.. ahh.. 3hrs.. but still veh veh tried.. uh huhs.. i came online.. but didnt blog.. cos ruch for time! hafta do my CME project.. which i onli finishes at.. 10.30 and havent learnt my chemistry(oops). but luckily i did slept in the afternoon.. so.. i slept at 1am. lol. but todae CMEs project is in a mess..mic kwok forgot to save in her cd. and we onli did half the presentation. (sigh). so..didnt really went on well though. cos i cant stop luffin.. *uh huhs* yeah.. and oh well.. its over.. hope ms khoo doesnt really penalise us?!?!
and todae hafta stay back for rod dance. im real slack. didnt bother to dance until the last part. where everybodi hafta do so.. soo umm.. yeahx. but we had the good news that we hafta perform in teachers dae.. which is really really impossible for mi.. but um.. anyway. hafta. no choice. and i think ill end of ere? hafta go and hav a bathe...and sleep early for tmr NDP. hope it goes on well and i wont faint? but.. so glad. no preview and is the last 2nd time! but will hata miz my frenz.. oh sigh.. err yaz.. buhbye.. =/