my computer is getting soo crankyy. urghhh. i need loads of anti-virus software installed mans. all the virus and pop-ups keep showing. what crap. but nevermind i dont mind having this computer down. at least i wont feel addicted then.

oh wells. broke down ytd. dunno y suddenly cried. but its over. just hope i can pass. but its an easy ppr. but i dont mind passing, w/o flying colours. unless there is a serious careless mistk. cos im a certified chemmy idiot. at least a 4 for my science?

anyways. slept from 10.30 to 5.30 this afternoon. got a shock mans. this shows that im reallly tired. but *phew*, no ppr for 2 days, no school! but hafta buck up for my amaths and lit ppr.

bio peeps, GOODLUCK for your ppr! x)

urhh. i slept for like.. 4hrs just now? feeling so tired.sighh.



wow. another ppr over just like that. i dont dare to tell dad that i lost 17marks(out of 80) just like that, cause i left the qns blank. i spend too mush fretting over some STUPID qns. so stupid of me to do that. oh wells. ITS OVER.



anyways. bloody dci. u are gonna get it from mi when i see u!! bastard. keep calling my handphone to disiao in the middle of my ppr! bastardbastardbastard. lol. cause i was complaining to him that i still have to wake up early. so he is boasting to me that he can wake up ltr cause he doesnt have a ppr. but i dunno y the hell he woke up at 930 when he cld slp till 12? dangg. and u pure chemistry bastard promised to teach mi chemistry. where the hell are u. =/



and dci told mi she ran away from home AGAIN. but she still goes to school. -.-''



anyways. back to ME. lol. gonna study my worst sub ever. CHEMISTRY. and i havent touch my chemistry tb AT ALL for the exams.



*that IS suppose to be a hug.lol*

added a new set of smileys for tagbaord and blog. just find them so cute.


im in love with them. soo cute! lol.


alright. STUDY!

H o l d i n g B a c k
I'm holding back
holding back
from the feeling
I feel

Holding back from the love
I receive, holding back from the
love I can give.

Holding back from my true feelings
I could reach skies, move mountains
If I didn't hold back.

I've held back for to long.
I've cried my last tear.

But still I held back
held back the tears that
I should have released from my soul.

I'm holding back from you
my giver, my creator, my life.

im going all BONKERS. havent study YET for the day. and im left with 10chaps of amaths and all? including relavtive velocity, trigoo, logarithms, differentiation and integrations? wtf. all BIG topics. and some of the small topics i think i cant really handle too. wad the hell. how am i gonna score well.

anyways. slept at 430 this morning. and woke up at 230pm. and sis made a BIG FUSS? all because she slept later and woke up earlier? damn.

i dun hav the mood to study now. feeling all so tensed up and peeved. having a slight headache when i woke up. i think ive gotta burn midnight oil mans. not really though. i sleep in the afternoon and study at night. at least during that time i can hav full concentration and queitness. my concentration lvl is LOW LOW LOW.

`themusic_OnBendedKnees(Boyz2Men)

damnn. i cant get to sleeepp! lols. just finished with 2-3chaps of amaths. and that was the first time i touch on my bks during the wkends. greaat! hahahs. loads more to go. probably studying chemmy and read a story from my lit text before i sleep. and that senile sis of mine is bathing now and gonna study with her frenn(online) later.

i detest this feeling. i cant possibly believe myself. i screwed up everything. not a single ppr was done with confidence. shattered dreams. broken hrt.



/feeling demoralised.



emaths is over and done with. shant comment. i cant even guarantee i'll secure a B. and its so far frm my target. physics was totally OVER. a once supposedly better subs among the rest. how can i ever lean on chemmy for science, given that i nvr passed that sub before?



what else can i do? learn from my mistakes? but it far far easier said than done. I hate this. I feel like im in a dilemma. I don't know why.



Maybe all i can do now is to study hard for my subsequent pprs. But how am i gonna do so, feeling so downcast and demoralised? And i cant possibly score well with last minute work anyways.



sigh.



shld i be glad, that its only prelims? but i cant help but regret.



its all over. get on. do my best. its like, running through the race, but having an asthma attack halfway. lk wad always happened while im running? =/




`themusic_talk to me (Smash!!)

damnit. i deleted the wrong post. the tuesdays one is gonee.

lols. i forgot my password for blogger. but thanks to teachnology! the password is auto-saved. as in.. you shld know wad i meant?



no mood to study today. the mindset is fixed. practical need not study. although i had remind myself a zillion times that there is much to study for chemmy practical. stupid brain.



i think i hav to depend on my literature as my humans subject. partially because of the lack of time for my geography paper and that i hav no confidence in getting better results compared to the rest. and because i spotted the wrong topic. spotted tourism and development. and was kinda relieved, knowing the fact that i have a alternative if environment is combined with either tourism or developement. but ms khoo is clever enough. environment is on every topic. and i struggled through the 9marks qn.



felt so 'lonely' last night, although i did chat a little on the phone. and i missed the bachlorette!pfft`. missed lingzhi's voice on yes933. but a least theres a substitute - carrie from perfect10! but i prefer jamie though.



cut the crap. gonna force myself onto the chair to open up the chemmy green bk. somethingsomething analysis. i HATE being detained. for 3hrs? i rather get home and lie on my bed.

`themusic _so yesterday(hilary duff)

having a serious headache. pain like hell. damnit.
im gonna go ITE if i continue this way..

listening to singapore hits awards on radioo now. muahhahs. b o r e d.

havent been studying today. much to goo. urgh. and exams is like.. on monday? seriously DEAD. nvm larhs. hahas

i finally got the ss notes! forgot about it ytd. lol. so borrow from junliang. and yupp. pheww. lol.

seriously, i dun feel stress. except when doing amaths. esp. just now! doing differentiation. urghh. feel so demoralised. cant even do a single sum in the tenyearseries. and there are tons of them. *pulls hair* AHHHH!

lol. anyways. the night is still young! have been burning midnight oil everynight. i just love night time. lol. alrights. shall use the net for a while and back to mugging. bwah.

all new template. i can't stand the old one. all i see is boxes, with crosses.
havent been coming online much lately. mugging for prelims. last miunte. and im not even half-way through. except for physics and social studies.
and today is wednesday. half of my hols are .gone. *whoosh. just like that.

sigh. i hate the english ppr. my whole aim to enter JC was dashed. just like that.

i hate the topics for composition. i screwed it all. spending 15mins, pondering on what question to choose. and the storyline was utter crap. too angry. i could even write a better composition now.

end up with a childish storyline.

sigh

paper2 was a goner. fullstop.

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