troubled. confused. thats wendy today.

seek loads of ppls advices. but i just cant make up my mind.

im glad, and somehow angry. i could get a b3. i knew i could. but my orals.. pulled mi. all i wanted was a b3.. ive reached my goals.. but just because of my stammerings and nervousness.. my target wasnt reached..

i hav the urge to put a 'yes' on the ppr which has a qn 'retake?'. but i wanna concentrate on my other subs too. im afraid. if i ever get a b4 and below, all my efforts are wasted. the feelings of a broken hrt is just so so awful.. but i wanna retk.. as i wan to reach my goals.. but im still blurr. confused. there is only one person that got a pass for orals and get b3..

is it impossible?

all things are possible. but shld i follow my heart.. and retake, or emphasize on my other subjects? so so confused.

dad is kinda angry. alright. he shldnt be angry. i cant improve and jump from a c6 to an a2 straightaway alright. my language aint as good as sis. stop comparing us will u? i must admit my maths is better than hers. but not chinese. ive been flunking chinese since primary school. if you didnt notice. in fact, he shld be happie. ive got a B for the first time in my upper secondary life. from Ds, to Cs and now the final lap, a B4. im happy for myself.

stop comparing. PLEASE. u claimed that sis chinese was from Cs and Ds. pls look at the report book. sis has nvr gotten a C for chinese in secondary school! and its natural that she got an A1!

sigh. y cant we retake oral!?!?

i will certainly retake if i got a merit for orals alright. but things done cannot be undone.

i cried. not tears of joy. neither sorrow. but confusion. wheres God at my hardest point in my life?

maybe i shld seek my seniors and friends advices. just like wad sweedy said. pray. ask God. and all who stood by me. but the decision is still mine.

wendy. in a dilemma. i am totally moodless to study now.

alright. back on track. first time in my life i hav to make such a decision. urgh. how am i gonna face my future if i cant even make such a simple decision for myself? oh wells. today. seek loads of ppls advices. inbox flooded. talked to ms wong, ms khoo and pan lao shi. still, it all depends on mi. but i improved! yups. didnt paid attention in class today.

was already thinking ytd. b3 and above- NO RETAKE. c5 and below-MUST RETAKE. and im faced with.. ARGH. help. oh wells. listen to my ahmas advices la. tokking to her later. hope i can make my final decision.

ive thought it all. it is definately easier for mi to score a grade higher for chinese than subs like humanities. all thanks to my orals. im stuck.

//pissed.