urhhh. ppr was. wadeverr. i dunnoe wads wrong with my health now. im totally. OH WELLS. i can stand any longer. im feeling hot when i am in an aircondition room. im feeling cold in the shawwhall. i think my body is against mi too. im such a freak. amaths ppr is uhm. i realli dunno wad to say. struggled my way thru.
but i just hope, hope for the better.

all i need is ample rest. or maybe, sleep and nvr be awake again.

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im a totally failure. but god made mi this way. so wads with me then. maybe in just forever in the wrong. in the midst. just gif mi a car, with its air condition on, and let mi slp in it forever. i dun wanna live in this chaotic world no more. that aint my life. i wanna go to mars. be the only human soul there. and thats wad i wan my life to be. like Vashti in the machine stops. isiolated every now and then. im just rotting. and turning white. i cant my life any longer. god made mi for a reason. and he wouldnt tell me the reason. and this is still me. im too puzzled. and no one know mi well. only my diary does. only my bed does. cause im only pouring out my feelings to them. my tears. my sorrows. how things pierce thru my hrt. broken forever.

its not mi. im nvr mi. all the smiles and luffters. just to brighten up my day. cause its just that, i cant attept reality. life is full of ups and downs. but whenever is my life gonna be up again? till my parents get together once again? that will never happen. its not gonna happen. no one noes me well. no one. not a single human soul on earth. cause im isolated. i dun mind being lock up in an isolated room. i dun mind. cause i prefer my life that way. im not changing. no more. cause im utterly, lifeless.
its not gonna be me anymore. no more. cause im in a totally different world. since im in sec4. its just. a different world.

daddy, i dun think i can hold on anymore. sorry for wasting your income on my studies, daily necessities and milk powder. i can see the worry in your eyes. and im trying my best. i can feel wad u are thinking after looking thru all the numerous mistakes i did for my chin ppr. im ur daughter. i knew it all. i know u are always there to encourage mi. tell mi again and again 'that my std is not far from sis'. but i cant achieve ur goal, since sec 1. my life has been change. but i will hold on. till the end.