im going bonkers. crazee. just studied for.. *counts*(530 to 7) 1hr 30mins of physics? and i really noe nuthing lo. sigh. regret not listening to mr lim during class time. regret not having to revise thru my work. and regret not starting my midyr revision earlier and now im faced with double the load. chinese Os and midyr. realli sick. fell sick. dad even asked mi "are u stress lately?" i shooked my head. i wanna show him i CAN do it by my good results for mid yr and chinese Os. i wanna show him that i can get to my dream JC and continue with the same path as my sis. i needa study real hard. and cope my time well. i shldnt be here anymore. i havent started revision for mid yr and Os. so regret not listening to dad's daily reminders. so so regret. and now im faced with stress. flunking all my tests, thinking its of no use. and u just turn back the time? i realli wanna score well. very well. i noe wads the std this yr. dragon yr. loads of students are in the same plight with mi, n im sure of that. but hope they realised that there is a time constraint. Os are onli 195days awie. and my 2yrs of revision is not done. not at all. and i dun wanna stress myself now. or i will be REAL mad by the time mid yr arrives and stressed up during Os. i just wanna get wad my father wished for: 13 or 14 pts for L1R5 and its possible. for ive been slacking for 3 whole yrs.

its so painful. life is so painful. but wad life if there are no obstacles? after 6more mths of hardwork, ill be able to tk a mth of break (or even longer. :(). peserverence. and all this can onli blame myself, not studying hard for a past years(building up my foundation), not listening in class, being to playful. its all the past. get into meridian JC. i can do it i can do it. all i wish for is a B3 and above for chinese (its possible!) and having A1s for emaths, amaths and science. im gonna study hard. and improve every step i tk. and get towards my goal. i can do it. i can do it. i cretainly can.